When trying to start something
I'm the biggest coward
I'm also the most courageous
Thats what i have learnt today...
what we could have been, 2:00 PM.
I am scared, i don't want to go through the same thing again
I think its the best staying the way as it is.
At least i am still able to be smile my way through
what we could have been, 12:32 PM.
No school today, so shiok..haha:P Went out in the evening, met jena and watched Night at The Museum 2 at wm..haha:P Overall quite nice, and funny too..haha:P Damn cute. Worth watching, can ask me to watch second time also can..haha:P But the first is the best:P Ate pasta mania before watching, as i was craving for it. Ate till very full. Then went to take passport photo, and the aunty damn funny, so crap. wasted $9 on the crappy photos:( Walked around after the movie, and off we go, home sweet home:DAnd i have changed my link!! :DI have been dreaming of you for 3 consecutive days, you are always on my mind, now even in my sleep...I am going back to my show (:
School starts at 8 tml:(((((
Byeee
what we could have been, 10:11 PM.
Mix feelingsIt rained today..yeah!! Hahaha:PFinished unit 3 of ECM, becos test is coming:(I want it to be me, but i guess you will be able to find someone else to.Had an interview by Leonard Tan just now about the exchange programme. And it is confirm that i will be going. Ms Deon told me last min, i was not mentally prepared sia. Went to his office, and was asked some questions. And he asked one question and i was like how to answer sia???? haha :P And i was told how it is going to be and what will i be doing there. Basically i will be going there to see see, see what? See the industry, the culture i think. Will have a orientation at a school there, HKIVE a vocational school, and i will be staying at their hostel. Then will be going to China for 5 days i think, i think will be doing the same things, but i will be staying in hotel instead...haha:P Have to do a project and presentation of the trip after that..so i am not going there for fun...haha:P Will be there from 19 sept to 9 oct, all alone there:( And 3 days after i come back, attachment starts, so fast:( I am happy and sad at the same time...sigh. So funny. Everything is just a facade:(Thought i can go on a cruise this june but my mum say no more space le:( Sad leh, make me so happy just now:(((No School tml..Yeah!! :DByeee
what we could have been, 5:43 PM.
Happy EndingThis is the way you left meI'm not pretendingNo hope, no love, no gloryNo happy endingWake up in the morning, stumble on my lifeCan't get no love without sacrificeIf anything should happen, I guess I wish you wellA little bit of heaven but a little bit of hellThis is the hardest story that I've ever toldNo hope or love or gloryHappy endings gone forever moreI feel as if I'm wastin'And I'm wastin' everydayThis is the way you left meI'm not pretendingNo hope, no love, no gloryNo happy endingThis is the way that we loveLike it's foreverThen live the rest of our lifeBut not togetherTwo o'clock in the morning, something's on my mindCan't get no rest, keep walkin' aroundIf I pretend that nothin' ever went wrongI can get to my sleep, I can think that we just carried onThis is the hardest story that I've ever toldNo hope or love or gloryHappy endings gone forever moreI feel as if I'm wastin'And I'm wastin' everydayThis is the way you left me (Oh, I feel as if I'm wastin')I'm not pretendingNo hope, no love, no gloryNo happy endingThis is the way that we love (And I'm wastin' everyday)Like it's foreverThen live the rest of our lifeBut not togetherLittle bit of loveLittle bit of love(Little bit of love, little bit of love, little bit of love, little bit of love)(Little bit of love, little bit of love, little bit of love, little bit of love)Little bit of love(Little bit of love, little bit of love, little bit of love, little bit of love)(4x)And I'm wastin' everyday, hey, hey, hey(Little bit of love, little bit of love, little bit of love, little bit of love...)This is the way you left meI'm not pretendingNo hope, no love, no gloryNo happy endingThis is the way that we loveLike it's foreverTo live the rest of our lifeBut not togetherThis is the way you left meI'm not pretendingNo hope, no love, no gloryNo happy endingRuby's blog song. Nice :D
what we could have been, 10:33 PM.
SuNdAyWent Esplanade to do project, managed to finish our PIC project..haha:P Watched the video Ruby made for us the second time, and we laughed like hell..Seeing all the changes from day 1 till now. And those who came into our lives and left after that. Went for dinner after that, and Ruby and Rebecca ate their ban mian happily..haha:P Then Home Sweet Home:DMoNdAyNothing much, just that i saw him before the start of my class, a good day to start off..haha:P And i have a job during the june holidays! Can't mention much:P Andandand i may be going on a cruise. YeahYeah!! haha:D But not confirm yet, cos more than half of my June holidays is already taken up:) It will be a real busy holiday, but i love it cos i can still see my classmates..haha:P Agrhh!!... having a slight headache:(I wanna watch movie!!Y isn't my dream phone out yet? :((((I dreamt of something that will never ever happen last night, but it was a sweet dream:DThe familiar warmth and hug.
But it made me want you more:'((((Byeee
what we could have been, 6:56 PM.
Had choir practice after class today, the choir master didn't come today, so someone replaced him, Mr Joel i think. Becos of Jena i keep laughing, cnt even sing sia. What a crazy girl. Had fun cos we were taught different kinds of warming up, very funny..haha:P And the stupid aircon didn't work, damn stuffy, but after that it was ok. Nxt friday got combine practice with the guys, becos of my cca points i will go..haha:P Love, will it ever appear again? I am afraid, but i still.....Sigh:(
I think the weather is making people sick, hot and cold. Bad...
Vicky must rest well ok, get well soon and see ya on sunday:D Love ya<3
Received the form for the exchange programme today, and heard that nobody frm HL and HM is chosen yet, cos they dun really want to go. That means i will be going, if nobody frm the other class going. Interview will be next week. If only someone from my class can go together:( Ms Deon say that the amt of money edusave will subsidise will be base on my family income, i hate it. I dun like it when they have to see the income:(
I wanna be happy again
Thanks to QH i am soooo happy today, and crazy..haha:PThats the only way to shift my attention away from him, if not i dunnoe how. I wanna go back to the old days where everything is just aas simple.
Byeee
what we could have been, 7:50 PM.
I am watching American Idol Finals, damn nice. Lots of well known singers like Rod Stewart, Keith Urban, Jason Marz and black eye peas. And Kris got 100 million votes which made the record..haha:D I am watching it for the second time..haha:P I am going back to enjoy Kris performance..hee:DAdam looks like a freak when he was singing with the Kiss band...wth -__-" Ruin the whole show.Byeee
what we could have been, 10:44 PM.
Kris Allen won the title of American Idol
YEAHH! :D
Mummy is so cute, she msged me in the morning to tell me that Kris won...hehe:) And he won but 100 Million votes. Happy!:D
Adam didn't win..haha:P

He's cute:D
Byeee
what we could have been, 3:13 PM.
Have no appetite, having migraine:(Finally Mr Francis is back, miss him sia, too bad he couldn't teach us anymore:( It didn't rain today, so its very hot. I can't stop thinking about youI saw him at the bus stop today, and i can't help but smile like a fool:P Jena and Rebecca, i saw him..hehe:D At least there is something that made my day today:DThere's american idol later, hope Kris will do better than the adam(he looks like a gay). hahahahahaha:P No way he's gonna win:P
Byeee
what we could have been, 8:12 PM.
School starts at 11 today and ends at 3, we are going home earlier these few days. Its not no good, but its like we are not really doing anything in school. Sigh...
I finally made up my mind to go..hee:D Had a sleepless night becos of it. But i am thinking too far abit, cos have to go for a interview first, dunnoe if confirm can go or not..haha:P But i hope i can, since i have a lready made up my mind, if cnt, i will be so sad:( I am looking forward to it=D
Why am i still hanging on like a fool?
Photos uploaded=D
3 words 'I love you' <3Crap
O.o
Peace
The back alley...Whats with the hoodie?
Byeee
what we could have been, 4:46 PM.
A Rainy DayEdited.I was lucky that daddy fetched me to school today, if not i will be caught in the rain..haha. Had assembly and went for our lunch. Then at 1.30 we gathered at the foyer to wait for our bus, then off we go to SMU. Reached there very early, about 2 plus, and the talk started at 3.10. So we were all talking while waiting.At some point the talk was quite dry, but the short videos were very motivating, sad and meaningful. Altogether the talk was okay=DWent for lunch at MSQ after that, then i went home and the rest went to Esplanade. Took a bus home, a long ride. Its been so long since i took such a long ride home myself. I love long rides:D, but i hate it when things start coming through my head, its scary, really.I can't make up my mind. Ms Deon ask me whether i would like to go for the exchange programme in Hongkong and China for 4 weeks in september. I am thinking about many things. It will be a very good experience for me, but i will be 'alone', only 5 i think frm college west will be going. But it is not confirm that if i want to go, i will be able to go, cos there will be a interview. Agrhhhh, i wanna go..but... How?!?!?!:( I have to give an answer to Ms Deon tml. My parents say its up to me..sigh...My nails are recovering..hee:DHe is so cute:P And he made me smile:DI think i am kinda crazy today..haha:PByeee
what we could have been, 8:12 PM.
Start of a new weekWent for projects yesterday. Guess where we went, we went to the Peranakan Museum..Heee:D It was quite fruitful and we enjoyed ourselves. And we learned alot about the peranakans. The embossing, the telephones, the embroidery, everything was fun and we took many pictures, in the museum and in the alley..wahahaha:P The 2 gig sisters..haha:P Wanted to go to Esplanade library, instead we went one whole big round, and we laugh our ass off on the way there, thanks to Jena and Ayu tooo!! Heheh:PRebecca left becos she had a date, then the rest of us went to the library, did our project. Left at 7 plus and went for dinner. Then home sweet home:DMummy is cooking lunch..Yeah!! :DAnd daddy is fetching me to school:D Happy:PDun really have classes today cos we are going to SMU:D Hee:PPhotos willl be uploaded sooooonn:DByeee
what we could have been, 10:20 AM.
Had presentation, like finally..haha:P And i opened the wrong file..wth- __-" So stupid..haha:P Ms Lim released us early cos she have something on, but we still have to stay back, so it was another 2 hours. Boring, so we just stayed in POT room and play computer. His criticisms keeps repeating on and on in my head, and it really hurts whenever i am reminded of his words.Had combined choir practice with the guys, and they keep playing a fool. Keep asking for break.Ok presentation is done, so can concentrate on PIC and ECM project already. Jiayou Jiayou Jiayou!! Hee:D So weekends will be burned again:( But never mind. I will wait for the holidays to enjoy, now school work and my grades come first:DByeee
what we could have been, 6:18 PM.
Unlucky(Edited)
Pain Pain Pain!!!:'( I broke a second nail, the pain is worse, its painful even when it touch water. Why am i so unlucky:( One broken nail is alreadi bad, now got two, how sia??? I am so stupid, tot it will not happen again. Stupid gal:( I can only blame myself on my stupidness..haha:( Things are just not going well for me:( How long do i have to go on being like this?Saw Ms koh in the bus on the way home and chatted with her for a while. She's still the same, still as sporty..hee:DClass is starting at 8..if only it starts at 8 every day, although its early, but we can also go home early. Have to stay back for choir practice tml, i forgot everything le lah..haha:P I have been feeling tired after school, although class stats early and end early sometimes, dun feel like going anywhere just straight home:( I am tired really tired. I know physical appearances is impt, what can i do? Its reality. Live with it? It SUCKS!Anyone have the song You Belong With Me by Taylor Swift?Byeee
what we could have been, 3:33 PM.
:(I am kinda blur this morning, forgot that school starts at 11.30 not 11. I should have known when i see ppl online, stupid right me:( I realised it only when i was on the bus to school and it took me quite a long time to figure it out. =.= Class was delayed cos ms lim was at dover. I wonder what it will be like:( What kind of life am i leading now? I am tired, tired of pretending
And i broke my nail, its soooooooo painful, and it kept bleeding. My poor little thumb:( I only broke my nail but it is as if i broke my arm, my left hand can't really do anything, or i would scream in pain..haha:PByeee
what we could have been, 6:17 PM.
T-U-E-S-D-A-YHad PIC test today and i just studied last minute, thats me..haha:P I think can make it ba. And today is just as boring:(Mummy and Daddy is coming back tonight..Yeah!! No more sleeping alone..hehe =D Have to make sure the house is clean and not messy, if not my mum will surely nag and nag..haha..so i will have to do the work. Bring in the clothes, wash the dishes, clear all the rubbish bla bla bla..so mafan:(I am still thinking how to settle my dinnerI am hungry:(
Byeee
what we could have been, 5:46 PM.
I am so full now, not hungry anymore..hehe:P My brother is happily eating outside, but thats better cos i dun have to cook for him and have to wash the dishes for him...hee:PIt rained today, but i like..hee:P Cos it won't be so hot. Presentations the whole day during Elvin's lesson, kinda boring and i was having a freaking headache, so just sleep..hehe:P Sleepy tofu thats y.. I think its the little bit of coffee i took this morning. Have been cutting down on my caffeine intake, alot actually and it kinda helps:) I miss my coffee every morning:( But what to do, for the sake of my head...haha:PMy sis and bro-in-law is back, they came back at 1 plus in the morning and i was still awake:P, i tot they wasn't coming back..haha. And i think they dunnoe that daddy and mummy went to genting = . =I am sick of eating maggi, tml how? I would rather go hungry and eat maggi again tml..haha. Can my bro be good to me for once and buy me dinner tml? And maybe singapore will snow tml...wahahaha:P CrapI just remembered that we have a PIC test tml, shit man. And i dun think that i will be a good girl today and study..haha:P I wanna go Boxhill so badly, but only 1 person from each class:( Can't they sent more? I want to go Australia again!!I have so many movies i want to watch. Knowing( hope i will be in time to watch it):(, 17 Again, Night at the Museum 2. Who want to treat me?hehe:PByeee
what we could have been, 7:39 PM.
You Belong with Me
You're on the phone
With your girlfriend
She's upset
She's going off about
Something that you said
She doesn't get your humor
Like I do
I'm in my room
It's a typical tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music
She doesn't like
She'll never know your story
Like I do
But she wears short skirts
I wear t-shirts
She's cheer captain
And i'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day
When you wake up and find
That what you're looking for
Has been here the whole time
If you could see
That i'm the one
Who understands you
Been here all along
So why can't you
See you belong with me
You belong with me.
Walking the streets
With you and your worn out jeans
I can't help thinking
This is how it ought to be
Laughing on a park bench
Thinking to myself
Hey, isn't this easy?
And you've got a smile
That could light up this whole town
I haven't seen it in awhile
Since she brought you down
You say you're fine
I know you better than that
Hey whatchu doing
With a girl like that
She wears high heels
I wear sneakers
She's cheer captain
I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day
When you wake up and find
That what you're looking for
Has been here the whole time
If you could see
That i'm the one
Who understands you
Been here all along
So why can't you
See you belong with me
Standing by and
Waiting at your backdoor
All this time
How could you not know
Baby
You belong with me
You belong with me.
Oh, I remember
You driving to my house
In the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh
When you know you're about to cry
And I know your favorite songs
And you tell me about your dreams
Think I know where you belong
Think I know it's with me
Can't you see
That i'm the one
Who understands you
Been here all along
So why can't you see?
You belong with me.
Standing by waiting at your back door
all this time how could you never known baby.
you belong with me.
you belong with me.
you belong with me.
Have you ever thought
Just maybe
You belong with me
By Taylor Swift.
Nice song, and the mv is quite cute -__*
I am having ice cream now:D
But not my fav ice cream:(
I miss HOLIDAYS, I wanna go overseas:(
School's starting at 12 tml, gonna be a long day as class ends at 6:(
Having presentation tml too, 4 hrs of elvin lesson and the rest of the class will present.
BORING!!!:(
I wanna have a time machine.
And maybe everything will be better? :(
AND Happy Mother's Day to All mothers :D <3
Byeee
what we could have been, 9:33 PM.
I am home alone now..haha:P My parents left for genting early in the morning and it rained heavily. Just received a call that they have reached safely:D So these few days have to survive on maggi..hehe:P Dunnoe wat time my sis and bro-in-law coming back today, or are they coming back today.Have to sleep alone tonight till tuesday:(School tml, the weekends pass really fast:( One more week is gone. Time is the only solution.Byeee
what we could have been, 1:00 PM.
=DIts friday today, another week is gonna end soon. Mas Selamat is caught, Finally!! WAHAHAHA:)Presentation during Elvin's lesson, mine will be on mon, i am the last second one lah, so suay..haha:P Love Sehah's ppt esp, u know..hehe:P There was talentine performance, almost all quite good. Decode was still as bad, the original singer is the best..haha:P Then had Ms lim's lesson, ended early cos she have something on. He is so cute..hee:P:D We decided to have another class chalet in august maybe with the juniors:) No holidays so just during the weekends, i just love chalets..wahahaha:D And one chalet in June too..Yeahyeah:D I am trying very hard to save.My parents are going to gentine AGAIN this sunday, without me:(My sis and bro-in-law is in hong kong now, cos he's having a competiton there. He's a very good chef..hehe:P They will be back on sunday, hope they will be ok cos HK is one of the affected countries with the stupid swine flu. i dun think i will be able to get that necklace, have to wait till s'pore sells it, but it will be the 'fake' one:( I am so SAD:(:(:(Having a headache now, if not i will go out:(I am still afraid to take that bus, that pass through that long journey.Byeee
what we could have been, 2:25 PM.
Time now 12.2oam
I am done with the power point!!!
I am so HAPPY!!
Yeah Yeah!!!
Nights!!<3
Yawns...Zzzz
what we could have been, 12:19 AM.
STRESSI am still doing my HIS Ppt. I have been at it since i came back from school. Its such a miracle that i started doing right after i reach home, cos i would always drag my time and will only do it at abt 8 or 9 plus..hehe:P Edited everything all over again, becos i was so not satisfied:P So now i am left with the animations, and it sucks ok, so mafan! Agrhhhh! But i need to let my eyes rest first, i feel so dizzy after putting my eyes so close to my lappy =.= Once this is finished, my brain will have more space..wahaha:PByeee
what we could have been, 8:41 PM.
NIGHTMARESSCARY NIGHTMARES!I am so slppy now:(
what we could have been, 9:15 AM.
BusyBusyBusy It will really be a busy month for all of us, projects dateline are nearing. Classes are always ending late, so our weekends will be burned. Sad:( But still have to Jiayou Jiayou Jiayou!!! :DAtiqah told me that the BBF necklace is out for sale alreadi, i really love it..hehe:P Its so pretty, i hope i will be able to get it. Please please please...
And i wanna watch movie movie movie...hee:D
The Star and The Moon
Byeee
what we could have been, 7:12 PM.
:(I am Finally online, it took me 3 over hours to get connected. CrapHave to take temperature everyday in school already, all becos of the stupid swine flu, where the hell did it come from? My thermometer is not in a good condition so have to share in school, not a good idea actually..haha:P Had 4 hours of elvin's lesson today, did the assignments, make me go crazy only..hehe:P Its been raining this few days, but its still humid, sigh...What is happening to our planet? Maybe one day s'pore will snow eh? haha..siao:PSomething happened in the family when i was out on sunday, how i know cos when i came home, everyone face black. So it will be better for me to keep quiet. But that doesn't prevent me from being drag into it, cos she was nagging and scolding early next morning. Imagine being scolded for no reason early in the morning, fuck right? This time i prevent myself from losing my temper, if not DIE! No more peace. She is still angry and i wonder when will she be not. I am sooooo Innocent!! :(Byeee
what we could have been, 10:51 PM.
Went to bugis today, not for fun or shopping, but for project..haha:P Glad that the interview is over, so a part of PIC project is done. Approached many shops for interview but none of them wanted or weree comfortable. But we were so lucky, the last shop we approached agreed to help us, so kind of them..hee:D Was out the whole day, and i am kinda tired, school tml also. But its starting st 12, so i can stay in bed longer..hehe:PHaving temperature taking in school tml, becos of the swine flu. Last time Sars, then what bird flu, now swine flu, wth!! Next time something new again. I hope it will be under control and will go away SOONNN!! haha:P Dun let it spread or we will suffer, i dun want to stay at home all day.Ok projects are piling up, no more slacking. And i have not finished HIS ppt, deadline is COMING SOON!!:( Sigh...lazy, tired and no motivation:(I would be very happy if s'pore were to snow now..hehe:PAnd i wanna watch movie!! :)Photos wil be uploaded soon!!:DByeee
what we could have been, 10:46 PM.