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Sunday, November 30, 2008

Happy Day

It will be a happy day for 2 people who i know today, one will be my sister and the other will be Sima. My sis will turn 27 today, old liao. Happy Birthday!!! <3hehe. And Sima will be engaged today...Congratulations!!! <3And i will be attending her party later, dunnoe how it willl be like...hehe:P I am looking forward:D

Looks like it is going to rain soon, but i hope it will not, please dun ruin this happy day:D Will have to go and buy her a gift later cos it will not be polite to be going empty handed..hee:)

After that will be going to Expo, finally i can get the things i want, but i hope it will not be so crowded today although i noe it will be:P cos its sunday today:( No choice, today last day, hope things will be cheaper..haha:P But i dun think it will:P

The weekend will sonn be over in another 11 hours, time passes really fast. If only my memories and pain will go away this fast too. But too bad it won't..haha. Ok stop thinking about all these le, today is a happy day :D:D:D:D hee. Will update what happen when i come back:D

Byeee

what we could have been, 1:02 PM.
Saturday, November 29, 2008

Spring Cleaning

My sis bf''s aunt came today becos they need to pray, but dunnoe for what, i think its for my sis wedding thingy...hehe. My sis and her boyfriend will be having their ROM on the 18 Dec. Its in less than a months time, so fast. And tml it will be her birthday. After our guest have left i help my parents clear everything, and did some cleaning around the house. If not my mum will keep nagging, cos she will say new year coming soon le so must clean up the house, every year like that de..haha. Then cleared my room also, now it is neater..hehe:P

In the evening went out with my parents, so long never go out with them le. Pull them go shopping with me can buy things without using my money..hehe:P But have to return, my dad charge me interest also:( hehe:P after shopping we went to have our dinner, had sambal stingray..yum yum :P And i am feeling so full after the dinner:D Tml will be going to Sima's hse for her engagement party at Bukit Panjang and then me and Juan will go Expo to buy things for my lappy :D I think i have to borrow money frm my daddy again, hope he will not scold me:(

Feel quite happy today cos spend a happy day with my parents, without quarreling..hehe:D I hope it will be the same everytime. I love you Mummy and Daddy <3

I think tml will be a busy day, but i am looking forward:D Hope everyone will enjoy their weekends :D

Byeee

what we could have been, 8:50 PM.
Friday, November 28, 2008

Another load of my mind

Its TGIF today again, another week is going to be over alreadi, time really flies... Did our printing of our sales kit today, thanks to Mr francis and his printer. And after finishing everything we went to hand t up, another one done le, i am so glad, its a big load off my mind lah. Soon i will be able to enjoy myself le, no wait, need to work and earn money first...hehe:P Had fun sataying and fighting with Daryl, because he one person bully me everyone will get him and satay him..haha so funny lor just now. Everyone just grab him and started sataying him...Nice right Daryl, bully me again lah:P

After school went to Harbourfront to have our lunch, and i am damn full after that, so dinner no need to eat le..hehe:P Then walked ard sent Ruby and Jena off to work then home sweet home:D Something nearly shocked me when i was alighting from the bus, dun wanna mention, i just saw wrongly..hehe:P Think too much. Tml will be going to IT fair with Juan, very far leh, but no choice have to buy things for my lappy:) Hope can get money frm my parents cos i really no money..hehe:P

Decided to get a banqet job through rebecca's agency, can work with Rebecca, Sihah and Jena say she wan to work also:D It will be tough and tiring for nxt month but just have to endure le:D Gonna chiong for work:P

Have a happy and wonderful weekend everyone!! :D

Tofus see ya on monday!! :D

I just can't stand my brother, he sucks, really sucks, go and die!!!

Byeee


what we could have been, 7:09 PM.

Purest of Pain
Sorry i didn't mean to call you but i couldn't fight it
I guess i was weak, couldn't even hide it
And so i surrendered just to hear your voice
Don't know how many times I said i am gonna live without you
And maybe someone else is standing there beside you
But there's something, baby that you need to know
That deep inside me, i feel like i'm dying
I have to see you, it's all that i am asking
**Baby, give me back my fantasy
The courage that i need to live
The air that i breathe
Living without you, my world's become so empty
The days are so cold and lonely
And each night i taste the purest of pain
I wish i could tell you i'm feeling better everyday
That it didn't hurt when you walk away
But to tell you the truth i can't find my way
And deep inside me, i feel like i'm dying
I have to see you, it's all that i am asking
Baby, give me back my fantasy
The courage that i need to live
The air that i breathe
Living without you, my world's become so empty
The days are so cold and lonely
And each night i taste the purest of pain
** Chourus x 2
I sorry i didn't mean to call you but i couldn't fight it
I guess i was weak, couldn't even hide it
And so i surrendered just to hear your voice

what we could have been, 6:46 PM.
Thursday, November 27, 2008

Can I ?

Didn't have class today, we went to Karcher Acadaemy instead. Went there to learn more about its cleaning appliances. Had some theory first before having practical lessons. The theory part was quite boring but the practical were better, cos we were showed how to use th appliances and can have hands on experience also:D Quite fun. Although its kinda long, but i find it ok...cos no lessons..hehe:P

After that we went to Jena's hse to finish up our project and her mummy cooked for us, very yummy, Thank you Jena's mummy:D Ruby played with Jena's dog and even treated him like senpai lor..OMG..hehe:P And Rebecca said Mimi(the dog) looks like Senpai...hahaha..so funny lah and i keep laughing:P Did till 9 plus then we went home. A weird man talked to me when i was waiting for 176, very scary lor that old man keep talking to me...but all the time i was not listening cos i couldn't hear what he was talking abt and i was looking see if my bus is coming. But so suay lor, the bus took so long to come lah, and i have to stand there and hear that man talk and talk..haha:P

Tml's project deadline will be changed to 12 o'clock, thanks Mr Elvin and David..hee:D Once again Jiayou everyone!!! :D And Daddy is coming home today, but he is not home yet leh..so late le:(

Byeee

what we could have been, 11:10 PM.
Wednesday, November 26, 2008

It's Tiring

Never really had any lessons today, its like a waste of time going to school these few days. But it was a very busy day for me and my grp today. Had to hand up our Entrepreneurship proposal today, but we haven printed out everything yet. So gan chiong lor, went to the self access room to finish it off, but many problems cropped up and i am so angry lah... Some of our files cnt open, printer no ink then gt one stupid lecturer came in and aske us to go out..wth. But Mr Francis is so good to help us book the room to let the whole class use, Thank you so much:D Stayed back during the break to edit everything and went up to print after that. Did a very silly thing to the printer..hehe...only Tofus noe what happen eh :P Although it was diffcult, but we finally finished it, i am soooooooo glad ok...Tofus congrats. Left with HSM sales kit and we can relax le, 2 more days..

HA Jiayou Jiayou Jiayou!!! :D

We were busy with our project so never do housekeeping, and slept in the class while some of them went to do the cleaning of the guestroom. After school went to IMM and bought the things we need for the sales kit. I am too hungry liao so ate a burger..hehe:P Then walked ard a while and headed home:D Have to clean up the hse this few days cos on sat there will be guests coming over...sian...haha:P

Someone, you very stubborn leh, dunnoe wat to say le lah. Say no need le right, i know i dun anyhow talk le lah..kanasai. I know its punishment but as u say its conscience wat, dun have to spent so much money de, save it up...Or just give me the money lah, i keep..hehe:P Joking Joking...really joking hor...:P

Ok i am going to have my dinner now, i am so hungry....hee

Byeee

I dunnoe why but i just felt something different today

what we could have been, 6:41 PM.
Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Can someone suppport me :P

Did nothing much in school today..slack here slack there, so boring. Slept at 10 plus ystd, cos i am too tired, everything is tiring me out and i dun have any more energy. I am just like a zombie now...haha. I am sooooooooooo hungry now but still cnt eat cos my diiner not ready yet, and my mummy is sleeping:(

Only managed to save $12 in 2 days, wth. What the hell did i spend on, i didn't even eat lah...kanasai. From tml onwards just bring abt $2-3 can liao..the rest keep at home..hehe:P If never save i am gonna die, by 12 nxt month must have at least $200 in my bank:( So now must save save save!!!! hee:D:( Can someone just support me?haha...wait long long got lor:P hehe. i forgot, bought a keychain from Wenbin today, the whole grp of them surround me sia, no choice so help him abit:Dhaha...

And thanks Nani for letting me punch you so many times today, i need to let it out:Dhehe
And someone, i think for now i cnt treat you ur lunch first, i no money, let me save up first..hehe:P maybe nxt week or wat ok:D Wore my contacts for just 1 mth plus only but my eyes are alredi hurting:( I think need to change to another one first. Ok thats it, i am having a headache again, omg...sigh. Feel like banging my head against the wall sia..kanasai:P

Byeee

I really dunnoe wat to say, i just dun wan to see the worse
And it hurts to see you behaving like this

what we could have been, 6:05 PM.
Monday, November 24, 2008

I just want a quiet life

I am just too tired to carry on, its a double blow to me. I just hope everything will just come to a fullstop, its just too much for me to take it, ya, i am weak. Things now are all going the wrong way, and more problems arise. PLEASE STOP!!! If not leave me out of it, leave me alone. I am not going to care anymore. I don't have the strength to carry on like this anymore. I just want a quiet and peaceful life, thats all i am asking for, and i will be grateful. Things have alreadi come to this point and i know it will never change for the better but i still hold on to that hope that everything will be back to normal. And everyone's life will be better than now.

What can i do to make myself forget everything? What can i do to let myself be free of all this? And i only thought of 1 way. I feel that it is the only way to end this struggle inside me. And maybe if things really goes out of hand this will be my way of escaping. It will be The End.

Goodbye

Just take me away, faraway from this ugly world, to a place where i will be able to start anew and forget EVERYTHING. Is xxxxx the only way?


what we could have been, 5:55 PM.
Sunday, November 23, 2008

Its a sunny sunday

Its a sunday today, but here i am doing project:( and blogging...hehe:P The weather is very hot today, but luckily got air con here..but very noisy sia, wat to do mac ma :P Ok Ayu is doing our proposal, Vicky is helping her, Jena and Rebecca is drawing the floorplan, Ruby is buying her food and i am blogging here cos i finished my part alreadi..:P Will help them after this:D

Stayed at home ystd and helped my mum with the chores, so guai right(like real)...haha:P Try out the new floorplan thingy,did some and wanted to show tofus today de but dunnoe y cnt get in, maybe its the wireless fault:( Tml will be monday le, so fast... I have to go school myself again, cos my dad going Vietnam:( Just got back from genting only then now go Vietnam..enjoying life now alreadi..haha:P Hope he will have a safe trip, faster come home ar daddy:P

Found out that i cnt work at the IT fair le cos enough ppl le:( Arghhhhhhhhh!!!!!!! I WANT TO WORK!!!! :( Guess i just have to go back to CC or find another job, banquet? Sigh.......No money...Tml have to treat someone to lunch oso..wat to do my punishment:(

Jiayou Gals let's finish this off together :D

Byeee
I don't blame you, because you don't know wat is going on, i just hope you can get out of it soon. And its up to you to choose who to believe too.... You shld know that i will never do anything to you although you did something wrong,becos ..., its still the same.

what we could have been, 1:52 PM.
Saturday, November 22, 2008

Good News!!!

Yeah Yeah i have a good news, our third tofu is being taken alreadi!!! i am so happy for u gal:D
Stay happy and last long with him alright. I bet you are so happy now..hehe. But dun forget our date to do project tml ok..hehe:P Ps. That thing worls huh...:P

So who will be next? Ruby, Ayu or Rebecca? Hmmmm....I hope it will be soon:D Have to wake up early tml, so i am going to sleep now, i am so tired and sleepy:P Ok see ya all tml..tata:D

Byeee

what we could have been, 11:03 PM.

If i were a boy

If i were a boy
Even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what i wanted and go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I'd kick it with who i wanted
And i'd never get confronted for it
Cause they stick up for me

If i were a boy
I think i could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear i'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
Cause i know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If i were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
So they'd think that i was sleeping alone

I'd put myself first
And make the rules as i go
Cause i know that she'd be faithful
Waiting for me to come home, to come home

If i were a boy
I think i could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear i'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
Cause i know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it'd just a mistake
Think i'd forgive you like that
If you thought i would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you're just a boy
You don't understand
And you don't understand, ohhhh
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man
You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you're taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

But you're just a boy


what we could have been, 6:21 PM.
Friday, November 21, 2008

Disappointed?

It's Tgif today..yea yea:D Did not go to vivo with Tofus today cos i meeting Chan and Juan. After school i waited for juan and we took a bus to bb then change bus and bused to Yishun...damn far ok. Went there to meet Chan then we went to eat the prawn mee..haha. Crazy right, go all the way to Yishun to eat, but its very nice, actually it was at Tiong but moved to Yishun le. Ate a few times le cos last time our working place was just nearby, one bowl cost $6, with 2 big prawns. Quite ex lah becos the prawns are life prawn and very big and fresh. After eating we took mrt back to bb, then went to wm for a while. Juan and Chan spent alot today..hehe:P

This few days everyone is so stressed up over the projects, it is really stressing us out. I am tired, but i dun wan to give up....Those who are feeling down or what cheer up ok:D

Saw something today which ruined my mood, i should not care so much, y must i? It has nothing to do with me, and i dun wan to noe what is it, becos i noe i will only feel worse if i know. I know nth i say will change, just let things go its way ba...i am just too tired to care anymore, i will just keep quiet, maybe as time goes by you will realise....i hope you will before getting hurt. Thats all i have to say, its up to you to now.

I will stop for now, but when chalet comes...hehehe:P

Oh ya thanks someone for the lunch :D I still owe you 3 :( :P


Yum yum :D Look at the prawns

Byeee and enjoy your weekends :D

what we could have been, 7:07 PM.
Thursday, November 20, 2008

I need a brain wash

Can someone brain wash me, i am really living in hell everyday.

Had fire drill today at school, so lame and the alarm was so soft lah, cnt even hear. Then discussed abt our projects in class, i am so fucked up ok...sigh. I really dunnoe what to say and i really dunnoe wat to do. Why can't we be in harmony? I just want some peace and quiet time now.

Played dunnoe wat game in class, david install de, quite nice leh..hehe. And i think i sucked at playing that kind of games and i keep banging everything..hehe:P But i like:P After school went IMM to do our project, and we had a very good laughing session..Laugh until can get heart attack sia cos no time to breathe..hehe:P I keep ahooting Ruby today...haha:P Continue tml again ok gals...Did till 8 then headed home:D Now i owe him 3 lunch( blame it on my fucking emotions), i am so gonna get bankrupt:P And i will eat alot tml, prepare more money ok someone...hehe:P And my parents are back alreadi, but i think i still need to take a bus to school tml:( I want to learn driving!!!..hehe:P

Gals Jiayou jiayou jiayou!!!:D Let tml be the last and during chalet we continue again ok(Jena and Ruby) hehe:P And Ruby i love you, you dun have to post that post for me eh..hehe:P He got a gay position if you want it if you want it - for you Ruby:P

I don't know what are you thinking about, sometimes i really want to open up ur brain and see what really is inside, but i cnt. I dun wan you to get hurt, but if you continue you will and you will definitely fall badly. Please stop. I dunnoe wat are you doing, just wanna tell you, dun be too trusting, look inside and not on the outside. I know it will fall on deaf ears and you will think its stupid, and you can laugh all you want, but if you look back in the future you will understand what i am talking about.
ILY
Byeee

what we could have been, 9:53 PM.

Charmaine Loves ruby !!!
She loves Cheeky till infinity times 2 !
muackz muackz

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what we could have been, 7:53 PM.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Quizzy Time
(As request by Ruby) :D

1. Do you have secrets?
- Of cos, everyone has:P

2. Would you fall in love with a boy younger than you?
- Actually no, but i did

3. Do you enjoy going to school?
- Ya becos i can see my darling Tofus and my frens

4.What would you do with a billion dollars?
- Hmmm...spent some, donate some and give my parents some

5. Would you fall in love with your best friend?
- I dun think so

6.Which is more blessed? Loving someone or being loved?
- Of cos being loved <3

7. What's your fav pick up line when you first knew someone?
- Hello/ Hi ?

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what will you do?
- I will try to forget him if i can, and find another one:P

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
- Ya, but there are many to put down

10. What makes you angry?
- When someone do something i dislike :P

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
- Married, have childern and my own business:D

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
- My family, sisters and Tofus

13. What is the most important thing in life?
- Idk :P

14. Single or attached? With who?
- Single

15. What is your fav colour?
- Pink? Purple? Black? ( i am fickle..hehe:P)

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
- I will in the past but now i am not sure..maybe i will

17. If you fall in love with 2 ppl simultaneously, who would you pick?
- I hope this will not happen:P

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing someone has done?
- It depends. But i will want to forget, if only i can

19. What would you want to tell the someone you like?
- I LOVE YOU! & YOU ARE MINE!! :P

20. 6 people you want to tagg.
- Anyone :D

what we could have been, 7:20 PM.

I love walking in the rain

I am back home from school:D Had housekeeping just now but didn't do much, did some folding of the towels, learned to fold a penguin with hand towels, so cute, love it:D Ms Deon released us early and went home, decided not to do project today. And i brought my lappy for nothing, make my bag heavy for nothing..haha. Rained before i got home and i didn't bring my umbrella...wat the hell. The rain was very heavy so i waited at my hse bus stop for the rain to stop, waited for abt 10 mins and still never stop...If i am not wearing my that flats and never bring my lappy today, i wouldn't have to wait. The rain got abit smaller and i cnt wait le, took out my jacket and covered my lappy then walked home in the rain and my shoes are damn wet now, i hope it dries by tml, luckily my lappy not wet:).. I am drenched, from head to toe, but it was quite fun walking in the rain, i love it:D

Haha and i saved alot today cos never eat..yeah yeah...finally can tahan:P Okay was caught by someone for...and i caught him...too..hehe:P We owe each other 2 lunch..haha. I will stop for awhile after this pack:)hee. Gonna do my research on my projects now..:D f..havin a slight headache now..arghh:(

Byeee

I feel so stupid

what we could have been, 4:29 PM.
Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Ok finally home sweet home...This morning took 963 to school with my bro, and the bus is soooooo squeezy..sian.. No s&w today so released early, went home to change then went to JE library to meet Tofus and did our projects. Everyone has been stressed out recently becos of the projects, Tofus we must relax ok if not we will not be able to get any work done:) Rmb Jiayou jiayou!!:D After that went to eat and chat chat, but vicky have to go first so left 5 of us... And smething happened freak us out...my heart nearly dropped out ok..haha:P Chatted for quite long then acc Jena to the bank and then all of us parted and headed home...reached home at about 10, i have been going home late recently becos of the damn projects. After the projects i am so gonna relax myself:P And received a good news ystd, Sima is getting engaged, congrats!!!:Dhehe. And she invited mi to her engagment on 30 nov...i can't wait:D

Gonna have housekeeping tml...wohoo..hehe:P Make beds again. But i have to bring alot of things tml le, have to bring my lappy also:( And have to squeeze in that stupid bus..sigh:( Cnt tahan my hunger again today..i think if i don't bring my money out better..haha:P OK i am feeling hungry now, stop thinking abt food liao...hehe:P OK two more days before my parents will be back...sian ar........... That stupid david tricked me just now...u better ask for forgiveness hor...i am angry!!!

Byeee

I'm confused

what we could have been, 10:14 PM.
Monday, November 17, 2008

Thing aren't going well for me today

Took 173 to school today myself, and it took about 1 hour to reach becos of the jam. And i can't imagine that i forgot to bring my handphone, only noticed when i was in the bus..shit man. Then got a stomachache, tahan for abt one hour leh, can die lor... Then got a slight headache again in class just now, no money in ez link card, cut my hand, and my internet is giving me problems just now. Thing are really not going well for me today, wth:( Sigh, but its over le, now i have my hp by my side, topped up my ez link card alreadi but i am broke and no more headache:)

Went to IMM with Tofus(w/o Rebecca), Sihah, Atiqah, Adlina, Zaki, Ahmad,Qh, Hakhim and Abdul..total of 15 and Mimi and Taufiq joined us for a while after that, very big grp right..haha. Ate and wandered around IMM and had fun. Cannot tahan my hunger le so ate something, waste $4:( Sang I'm yours and If we hold on together on the way to the mrt..haha:P Nice man:D Parted and all of us headed home... Managed to reach home before my parents leave the house..and i asked for more allowance..hehe:P I think $15 is enough for 3 days and the rest save up...yeah!!:D And today we got a new member in tofu, the smelly chao ta tofu..haha:P Have to thank Atiqah for helping downloading the song for me, really nice song. It's ok to cry by Evan:D <3

Had a urge to hug my mummy and cry, i dunnoe why, but i didn't..hehe. It will be funny:P

I hope they will be together, she deserve a good guy like him and he deserve a good girl like her, i wish you both all the best..hehe:P(although they won't see this):P Go xxxxx, i will support you all the way!!:D

I know its stupid, but thats how i am. They/He can laugh but i am not gonna care because thats my life and it has nothing to do with them/him. I know i am destroying my life and body by doing this but only that can pull myself away. I am sorry to disappoint you ppl. I am sorry....

Byeee

what we could have been, 8:30 PM.
Sunday, November 16, 2008

Rotting

Coffee Prince ^ - ^
Today i am rotting at home again..sigh. But at least got my vcds to keep me company. Watching Coffee Prince again, a very very nice drama..hehe:D Can save money if i never go out, good good:P Tml night my parents going Genting again -__- , this year dunnoe go how many times le, then everytime leave my at home..sob sob:( But its kinda great without them at home..hehe:P But too bad its not during the weekends they are going if not i can go clubbing..haha:P One thing i dun like, i have to take a bus to school myself until thursday, damn...i have to wake up very early and i am not going to take 963...too crowded. Hope my dad will let my bro use his car, then i will ask him to drive me to school...hehe:P

Hope can have the job at the IT fair, it is at the end of the month at Expo, very far..hehe:P. My bro give me the lobang one..thanks ar:) But its not confirm yet, maybe can maybe cnt. If i work i think i will have to miss about 2 days of school..But i dun really mind:P Haha, its still early to talk about this cos its not confirm yet:P kk i am going back to watch my show:D

Byeee

what we could have been, 2:10 PM.
Saturday, November 15, 2008

Birthday Party :D

Just came home from Jena's brother's birthday party. Went to meet Ruby, Ayu and Rebecca at bb mrt first then Jena's dunnoe who came to fetch us to the condo, its just a walking distance from my house..haha:P There were alot of peolpe there and we kinda feel out of place cos all of them are their families and friends. Ruby stayed for a little while only and had to go off to meet her friend, dun drink too much ok Ruby:P Then Ayu went off with her too, so left me and Rebecca only:(

So envious of Jena's family, so big and so close. I oso want a family like that, still rmb wwhen i was young my family would organise party's at my grandma's house, but now no more le cos both my grandparents passed away le and i very seldom see my relatives..sigh:( I think Jena is super duper tired today..haha. Had to do so many things, just seeing her taking photos already tired..hehe:P Rest well tonight ok Jena, you had a long tiring day today:D I had a nice time at the party, thanks for inviting us:D And had a NICE time looking at the photos..haha:P

Sent Rebecca to the bus stop and i walked home after sending her off, although its quite a short distance home, i am still scared, i am just so timid..hehe:P But i still have to walk home eventhough i am scared, and i keep looking around...I am just thinking too musch..hehe:P But sts just too quite here and abit dark:P Just glad that i reached home safely:D

Byeee

what we could have been, 11:53 PM.

Its the weekends

Woke up at 9 plus today..hehe. Always the same timing one, use to it liao..hehe:P But went to take a nap again just now cos sleepy again:P Going for Jena's brother birthday party later, and its just near my house so i think i can walk there i suppose..haha. ok i think thats all for now will blog when come back later:D Before i go gonna wish Jena's brother, Sebestian a
Happy Birthday!!! :D

To someone, i know its difficult to forget that person just like that, take your time, as time goes by it will fade. No matter what be strong and Jiayou!!! If you have any troubles your friends will still be with you and be your listening ear..Take care:D

Byeee

what we could have been, 1:43 PM.
Friday, November 14, 2008

Titleless

School was ok today but i slept during Elvin's class again..haha...And when i woke up i suddenly got migrain..its very very pain, it just came suddenly, its like something is pulling at the right side of my head...and i felt really terrible. Took 1 panadol from Atiqah then went down to co op to by 2 more, took 2 cos i think one not enough. felt better after that but the minute i walked out of school it came back again, because of the stupid sun...wtf..really terrible:(

But i stilll went to Vivo with Ayu, Vicky, Ruby and Jena, Rebecca counldn't join us:( So we bused to vivo, and i took the chance to sleep in the bus and felt better when i reached vivo..lucky:) Went to have our luch and went up to the sky garden to slack. Received a msg from someone telling me that he owe me lunch, and i told him i owe him one also..hehe:P So now we owe each other one...haha. After slacking went to but somethings and bused home with Ayu while Jena and Ruby went to work. Hope you will see your sos pai today ruby...hehe:P

To Jena, don't be so glum anymore ok, we Tofus dun want to see u like that. And i hope that the problem will be solved soon:) Just wanna tell u that u are really very lucky to have him as your boyfren, cos he is not afraid to tell ppl that he loves you and show his frens who his gf is. Look at me and him last time, going into an underground relationship really make me feel that i am not good enough for him so he is afraid to show. Hope that everything will be ok for the both of you. Try to sit down and talk tell him what you are thinking and find out his thoughts too, then the same problem will not arise the next time. I can't have my happiness but i want to see the both of you happy and i want the both of you to last long to. Promise me ok? :D

This song is nice:D


The Rose
Some say love, it is a river
That drowns the tender reed
Some say love, its is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed
Some say love, it is a hunger
An endless aching need
I say love, it is a flower
And you, its only seed
It's heart afraid, of breaking
That never learns to dance
It's the dream, afraid of waking
That never takes the chance
It's the one who won't be taken
Who cannot seem to give
And the soul, afraid of dying
That never learns to live
When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long
And you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snows
Lies the seed
Thats with the sun's love, in the spring
Becomes the Rose

Byeee
Enjoy your weekends:D

what we could have been, 5:49 PM.

Its TGIF today!!

Good morning everyone...have to go out earlier later becos of something hope i can reach sshool earlier:D And And And today is Vicky's birthday.

Happy Birthday Vicky!!!
Happy birthday Vicky...Hope you have fun today.Got date with Sara not?hehe:P Anyway i hope you will have an enjoyable 18th birthday today. Stay happy and strong ok. I love you <3

Any plans after school today? No:(
hahahahahahhahahahahahahahaha
I need to save save save!!!no eat today:(

Byeee

what we could have been, 6:55 AM.
Thursday, November 13, 2008

Sleepy

Omg...can i stop being so sleepy, everywhere i go i will want to sleep...sigh. What is happening to me sia? Die liao lah:P Must slap myself everytime i feel sleepy, i think thats the only way to not fall asleep..hehe:P Mr Elvin flare up again today...aiyo...and what Rebecca said made me laugh..haha:p We practised our singing today also, very nice and i am looking forward when everything is done and the service conference:) Confirm will be damn nice ok..hehe:D

Ok i am yawning away again..hehe:P Tomorrow is Vicky's birthday..going to be 18 in abt 2 1/2 hours:D

And...
Happy Birthday David!!!:D
18 le hor..Dun behave like a kid anymore le..hehe:P And hope you like the present we bought for you. I think it suits you..haha:P Must wear hor:D If not Tofus will kill you:P Hope you enjoy your birthday today, Stay happy and healthy...huai ren..hahaha:D

what we could have been, 9:29 PM.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008

I'm broke

I am really boke these few days...die:( So frm tml onwards i try not to eat in sch den can save at least $5 or more then go home just eat some bread..hehe:P By end of one month i think i can save $100? My bank is running dry...i am so gonna die if my parents find out, so the only way is to save up and put the money back:p

Had housekeeping today and we learnt how to wipe the glass and metal polishing..nothing much. Practiced bed making too and i improved on my timing..wohoo:D Gonna do better the next time:) Tml is another longgggg day, how am i going to keep myself awake during that 9 hrs...i think i tml confirm sleep in Elvin's class again, feel abit bad to be always sleeping during his class but i am just too tired and the lessons are very long and dry, many cnt take it oso...haisss..how to do well this semester?

I am just looking forward to christmas at Francis house, class chalet, service conference and the trip to Batam if we can go...I can only think of play sia..haha:P I just can't wait:D Tml Rebecca is finally coming to school..yeah!!! Hope she feels better:D And i hope that everyone will not fall sick ...esp my loved ones:D Stay healthy:D

When a girl is quiet..millions of things are running though her mind
When a girl is not arguing...she is thinking deeply
When a girl looks at you with eyes full of question...she is wondering how long you will be around
When a girl answers 'I'm fine' after a few seconds...she is not at all fine
When a girl stares at you she is wondering why you are lying
When a girl lays on your chest...she is wishing for you to be hers forever
When a girl wants to see you everyday...she wants to be pampered
When a girl says ' I love you'...she means it
When a girl says 'I miss you'...no one in this world can miss you more than that

Life only comes around once, make sure you spend it with the right person

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot
Who calls you back when you hang up on him
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep
Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead
Who want to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats
Who holds your hand in front of his hands
Who is consantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you
Who turns to his friends and say ' Thats her!! '

And if you really love her then cherish her...
Don't break a girls heart because she will feel worse than hell...

Byeee

08 November 2008

what we could have been, 10:15 PM.

It's raining it's pouring

Omg its raining cats and dogs right now...how am i to go out, lazy to take umbrella leh..hehe:P Stupid why must it rain now? Hope it stops by 5.15:( haha..just a random post to kill my time..haha. And i am going out to meet XXXXXX:P

Byeee

what we could have been, 4:55 PM.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008

I really need a rest

Nothing to blog about these few days leh..so boring. Everyday is just project project project, lessons lessons lessons, i am really tired and i think that i dun have enough sleep these few days, i am feeling so sleepy everytime in class, in the bus and everywhere..haha:P I am a sleepy tofu wat:P Only know how to sleep..right tofus?hehe:p Went to slack abit with Jena and Ruby after school at Clementi then parted with Ruby cos she going to her grandma's hse, then me and Jena went IMM. We go there then walk to JEC there to take bus, abit siao hor..haha:P Feel damn sleepy on the bus but no seats, so have to stand and my eyes are alreadi closing...really tired and sleepy. I really need to rest properly, but not now, have to complete my projects first. So now i just have to tahan:( And i hope can go clubbing this month but i think no time leh:( Sigh......What kind of life is this? Sucks man!!!haha:P

During life skills just now 3 grps did their presentation on abortion and did not hear any cos i really cnt take it, its just too cruel so i just stuck the earpiece in my ear and go to sleep. The pictures of the babies are deeply etached in my mind, i need to forget it...its just too sad and i seriously cnt take it:(

Byeee

what we could have been, 6:55 PM.
Monday, November 10, 2008

Dance like a dead fish

Do you know how a dead fish dance?haha..i noe:P Was laughing like fuck just now cos i watch a dead fish dance...ok i am now at IMM's mac doing project but here i am blogging..haha:P PSP boys are here too:Dhaha...okok...gonna end here gt to continus with my stupid project...erm no..i think me and Ruby are going to continue to watch more videos...right Ruby? She can't take her eyes off her SOS pai...hehe:P

Byeee

i found out a secret:P

what we could have been, 7:06 PM.
Saturday, November 08, 2008

Stress

Projects are piling up and datelines are nearing and i am feeling more stressed. But still i have to make it through:( Went to Espalnade library today with Tofus to do our project and it was fruitful:D But my back and legs are hurting lah cos need to sit on the floor for very long:( At abt 6 plus kenny and Stanly came to meet Ruby and the few of us dunnoe y became siao after that cos we joked and laughed about some things...so crazy lah and i think we laugh abit too loud...haha:P Then we left at abt 7 plus and went to have our dinner:)But parted with Ruby, Kenny and Stanly before our dinner cos they have their own plans:)

After eating we walked ard and i dunnoe y my stomach pain again, dunnoe wat kind of pain sia, cnt stand straight..kanasai:P Then parted with Jena and Rebecca, me and Ayu went to take bus, i took 77 and it was damn long ok..abt 1 hour...and i dozed off in the bus..hehe. Then need take 173 somemore..can die ar. Reached home at 10 plus but my mummy and daddy not home yet leh, where they go ar? Lost..hehe:P Maybe tml going to do project oso..see free not:P Ok..thats all ba...:D

Byeee

The first time was a funny feeling

what we could have been, 10:52 PM.
Friday, November 07, 2008

Let logic take over my emotions

Its TGIF today but too bad Jena and Ruby have to work so cnt go out..So me and Juan went out together, chan couldn't join us today cos she not free...Bused to Vivo,after reaching we parted with Ruby and Jena cos they going to u know ya, juan dun like so we went shopping:D We were just walking ard looking at clothes..i wan to buy a dress!!! Found one and it is quite nice but it cost like $60? so ex so never buy:( Nvm go other place find again...haha...And this month going clubbing..looking forward:P We left Vivo at about 5 plus cos we want to avoid the peak period, if not the bus will be very cram..i dun like.

Then we decided to go west mall. Went to face shop and look around..Initially i only wanted to buy the white mud thingy, cos Atiqah say its quite good, but bought alot of other things too. Like toner bla bla bla...Spent quite alot on those, but its ok cos i need to take care of my face and need to take care of my complexion:D Need to be more pretty leh, now must take care cos nxt time go attachment must be presentable:)hehe...I need to slim down oso...i will try harder now, its not becos of other ppl but myself, i want to be more confident of myself:D

Let logic take over my emotions, this is what someone told me. I agree, i will do it and in time i will be able to forget him and stop loving him..I am sure i can do it, i am just torturing myself if i dun forget him, so let go:D I will just keep the good memories behind my head, it will only be for reminiscing. Throw away the bad ones and start anew. And find someone who will love me for who i am and love me with all his heart. Ya once bitten and i am shy but i still have to move on, i am not gonna let this thing pull me down, never. And from today onwards i am going to take off my mask and show my true emotions, no more faking anything infront of him anymore, i am going to laugh and cry without faking and be myself again...This is a day i have been looking forward to and i am glad that i have finally took a step in front although its just a small step but i will still continue until i walk out of this problem...I will for the sake of myself and those who are supporting me:D

I CAN DO IT!!!! JIAYOU JIAYOU!!

Going to Esplanade tml with Tofus to do our project and have to wake up very early sia..but nvm for our project i will do it..Jiayou ok Tofus, we are going to do very well for all of our projects. Although the projects are stressing us but tgt we can do it:D

Byeee

Goodbye...I have taken a step forward and i am not gonna look back:D


what we could have been, 9:57 PM.
Thursday, November 06, 2008

Happy Day

Finished school at 12 today cos the lecturers have something on so we all can go home early...so happy lah:D Then Tofus decided to head to marina square cos Ruby wanted to buy her heels. Took a bus there and it was a long ride but i like it:) When we reached there we were all so hungry and went for our lunch at the food court...after that went somewhere to talk and we play until so crazy, now i am so tired...hehe:P

Ok, the main highlight of today is that a second tofu is TAKEN!!! And Jena we are really happy for you, really very happy, cos from now on you and him will be happy and we are all glad. It is a really happy ending ok...and gal stop thinking negatively ok..haha:D We will try not to ignore u alright:P And i wish the both of you the best ok:D Happily ever after Jena Tan and Siow Qinghao :D I am happy to see you happy:D

To someone, thank you for your advises and for sharing with me just now, i will keep it to myself dun worry:D And i am also glad to hear that you are getting over it already..jiayou ok? haha..Take care of your head ar if not later must chop off..hehe:P..but i hope you dun have to:D

Byeee

The journey home makes me think of alot of things, things that i really have to forget

what we could have been, 6:46 PM.
Tuesday, November 04, 2008

Just a yes and it will be happily ever after

Just got home, tired...Went to IMM and saw Sasi, luckily he is working or i will have to watch a movie with him liao..hehe:P After eating, we had a heart to heart talk among Tofus and waht we said as per normal will be top secret:P And nearly wanted to bang my head against the wall sia, becos of someone.. You noe who ar you ar:P And i am glad we sorted everything out. Oh ya, i forgot, got my pay today oso..so little:( But at least it is better than last month:P..hehe

Was a few mins late for school this morning becos of my dad...haha..But luckily Mr Elvin never scold sia maybe becos its his bdae today..hehe:P When i went into the class just now, i dunnoe why i just felt weird and had a funny feeling, becos of something ystd..maybe i am just thinking too much..I should really control my feelings these few days, really, i cnt afford to do that everyday...

I am glad that you said that you will try...And do you know that when u said that i am really happy cos i really wan to see a happy ending between the both of u:D Be confident about yourself and him...this is the most important thing ok...go for it gal:D And remember Tofus will always be there for you..:D

Byeee


Just now a thought just came to my mind i feel that i have never done anything for him and i am not attentive to him enough, maybe thats one of the reason why we became like this too. Becos i am not very outgoing and i don't know how to give...i kind of regret y did i not show him that i love him alot and y i did not do enough to make him love me. I think that i have done enough as a gf too(like how guys want their gfs to be)... And maybe everything will be different, but maybe not if i did...I am glad that u still have ppl to care for u and i am reassured cos i noe that u will not be alone. And i wish you success in everything u do.. Please stay happy and healthy..ILY, IMY

what we could have been, 7:54 PM.
Monday, November 03, 2008

Will things be different?

School today is fucking boring...and i keep sleeping cos i am damn tired. And i dunnoe wat got over me when i was in the LT just now. I really want to have a puff, but i know Tofus will not let me do that, i know it is bad for me but something is just stuck inside, i feel so uncomfortable and i need to let it out. I promise i will not be addicted to it one, i will only have it if i need. Cos i am not a person who likes to smoke, so i will curb myself one. When Daryl offered me one at the bus stop i really wan to just take it have a puff, but Tofus is there and he is oso there, i nearly couldn't control myself. Rebecca i know that if u see this u will definitely scold me one and u will say its not worth to harm myself becos of him, but i hope u will understand. Everything inside my mind now is all him and i duunoe y these few days i have been thinking of the things we did together, i want to get it out but it just naturally come...

I was wondering, will everything be different if we were never together, i think it will and everything will be better, so much better than now. I screwed things up and all our lives will be different from now on...Sorry that things have to be this way, I am just so stupid...

Byeee

I hate myself and the life i am leading now

what we could have been, 7:55 PM.
Sunday, November 02, 2008

Loads of fun and dizzy spells today

Went to Vicky's house just now and we had alot of fun...hehe:P And her family is very friendly and her mum cook very well. We were treated to lots of food and we were very full after dinner. Played and dance with Vicky's younger brother, he is so cute esp the way he dance and he likes to shake our hands:D He pulled all of us to dance with him and he likes David sia, wan to kiss him somemore...haha:P Left at about 9 and we went downstairs, and we played at the playground, play until like siao char bo like that lor, keep shouting...cos too exciting le:P Esp the turning thing, that thing really made me very dizzy that i fell on the floor lah...so malu:P And i nearly vomitted, now i still like vomitting sia and sometimes i feel my head like spinning like that...blur liao..hehe:P Vick , Ruby, Ayu and Rebecca tried it too and all fell down once...haha...it was so funny and we laugh and laugh...and we noticed that we were very noisy:P

After playing we were all perspiring, took a rest and we headed home...Mrt-ed home tgt:D Really had lots of fun todays with Tofus..Oh ya and we tried something new today(Ruby, Jena, Rebecca and me), we ate with our hands:P Its was quite difficult but it was fun..hehe:P Ruby u passed the test le, can be married into his family anytime le..hehe:P Ok..had a long day today and i think i am going off to sleep le...See ya tml Tofus:D Good Nights everyone:D Below are some of the pics we took at vicky's hse:D












Byeee

I know that the only reason for you staying is her and everything u do and the reason for your smile will always be about her, and it will always be remained as a fact. It will never be me, and i think that i dun even have a place in the corner of your heart, so i dun have the right to dream... What you see on the surface may not be true, the truth lies beneath, everything is just a cover, its ugly on the inside. Its time for me to let go, i will try harder this time because i still love you and yes i am silly...


what we could have been, 11:26 PM.

Its Sunday and Walkathon Day!!

Had walkathon today at bishan park and i woke up at 5 plus,so damn early lah and i have to force myself to wake up... We are supposed to reach there at 7.30 but we were late, we arrived at about 8 instead..hehe:P And our class had already started the walk, we thought we were quite far behind actually we were very close to them:D It is a 3.3km walk, it is round the whole park and we talked and played while walking..hehe:P Then noticed that Mr Leonard Tan was behind us:P So we kind of talk softer cos we are like scolding each other...hehe:P Samuel and Mr Francis ran the whole distance lah and Mr Francis ran 2 rounds somemore...fit sia..haha:P After we finish we went to get our goodie bags, its damn heavy lah, cos got alot of things inside...Den we took a class photo and did a warm down, just some stretching...:DHang around for awhile and played with Ms Hameiza's twins, they are soooooo cute, very cuddly and i feel like pinching their cheeks lah...I hope nxt time my children will oso be so cute, i love babies...hehe:D

After that decided to head to AMK hub there and have our breakfast...And many of our classmates were there oso... After eating we left, and Home Sweet Home!!! Will be meeting Tofus again later cos we going to Vicky's house..looking forward, and hope we are so going to enjoy ourselves:D Gonna take lots of photos:D Ok thats all for now,will blog again later:)

Byeee

How are you?

what we could have been, 12:29 PM.
Saturday, November 01, 2008


Congrats, I am proud of all of you

I found out that my juniors got a champion in my school Intra-school fancy drill competition, i am so proud of them ok...cos they are competing against all the uniform groups in our school, NPCC, NCC, BB and GB. And they won NPCC...very good. NCC, BB and GB i not scared of them cos our footdrill is 100 times better than them one, only NPCC is good enough to compete aainst us:P But maybe their standard dropped le, the first and second batch were the elites and they footdrill is really very good, but St John's the best..hehe:P I never hao lian, cos its the fact. We trained very hard de, working for the best:D Too bad i did not get to see my juniors competing, i would really be happy cos they made us proud and did not disappoint us, and it was their hardwork that made them win the competition:D Its them who made SJ carry on in Hillgrove and i am thankful:)

I really miss the days when the whole grp of us will do footdrill tgt, our officers will be very hard on us, expecting a solid bang from us aft every command if not u will hear 'samula'(is it spelled this way?:P), it means we have to do it again and we will keep complaining..haha:P... We also need team work to achieve that, and we did in the end. We would always try to maintain that tip top standard, showing off to other uniform grps:D We are proud of that and we gt top three in the competition. Once a judge even praise me for my good commanding, loud and clear..hehe:P If i have the chance i would like to put on my SJ uniform and my boots and do a full sequence footdrill with all my friends again...i will not forget how hard we worked tgt and how smart and serious everyone looked when we are doing our drills...Esp when we got to be the GOH during the prize giving day, although its only once, i am sure all of us will not forget that day...Joining St John is the greatest achievement in my life:D


Our Motto : Pro Utilitate Hominum (For The Service of Mankind)

what we could have been, 11:45 PM.

Jiayous

School was ok ystd, finished the movie...very nice movie and i liked it very much:D After school went to Orchard with Juan, went shopping..hehe:P And we spent quite alot, heart pain sia:( No money le...must save again...hehe:P Then bused home from there, cos lazy take mrt and it is gonna be very packed. Dozed off in the bus as it was quite a long ride and i am tired:P Reached home at about 8 plus and slept at 12 plus...early sia..haha:P

Gonna stay at home today the whole day cos i really need a rest, if go out confirm spent money again..Nothing much to blog abt today so thats all...But before i end...

To you: Jiayou Jiayou Jiaoyou!!! Go all out today, hope to hear good news today:D

Byeee

If he were to be like him, i would be living in happiness now....no more sadness and tears...
I can only wish for the impossible..
You have moved on without me but i still hope and wish u will be happy, although it hurts me to see that...
But i just want you to be happy...

Thinking of u and i miss you...
I love you...

what we could have been, 1:14 PM.

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