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Thursday, January 29, 2009

It just came back

Today was kinda a bad and moody day for me. Read new moon in the class and everything came back, flashing through my mind when i was reading chapter 3. I tried hard to shake it away, but it just won't go away. And it just made my mood bad. Was going to have a fucking presentation, and i dun even want to talk. And i know i did badly, some things added to it too and i nearly blasted out. Fuck Off!!!! thats what i wan to say, i am just freaking pissed. So my whole day at school was ruined. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

After school i decided to go my aunty's house, my parents were already there so i have to go there myself. Took a bus there, i just love long rides..haha. Reach there at about 6 plus, played mahjong for a little while and we all went for our dinner. Food was nice, and i am freaking full but the restaurant blacked out 4 times -__-
Home sweet home after that, i am tired.
Tears just flowed down when everything came back, i can't believe, i hate myself. fuck
Time passes. Even when it seems impossible. Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches ang dragging lulls, but pass it does. Even for me.

Byeee

what we could have been, 9:21 PM.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009

A Million Stars

House visiting during CNY was kinda pathetic, because my family only went to one of my uncle's house(father side) and my grandmother's house(mother's side). Becos some were not free and 2 of my relatives just passed away last year so ya...haha:P Spend the whole day at my grandmother's house after that, cos all my cousins came and played card games. I am glad that the whole family will gather like that every year, even without my grandparents around, it will be great. And i miss my grandparents:( The second day is also the same, spend the whole day at amk. Although cny have 15 days but it feels like it only last for 2 days, so boring and not fun at all. Have to spend the remaining days at school studying and having test:( And i didn't get to see the solar eclipse:(:(:(

But it feels great to see all my classmates back at school..hee:P
Had bedmaking phase test today, although i know that it starts today, but i still din't bring my hsk attire and i dunnoe why..hehe:P Everyone fared very well during the test, good job HA..hee:D Slacked in class again today. After school Ruby, Ayu, Rebecca,Sihah, Huixian, Adlina, David, Qh, Sam, Zaki and Ahmad who came to meet us later. Lepak there...again..haha:P Then bused back at about 7 plus...took 985 and have to walk..tired and sleepy sia..haha...always de:P I think i have to change my contacts le, my contacts are so dry that it nearly went to the back of my eye just now...haha:P My eyes feel so much better after taking it out, but it still feels as if something is still in my eye. I hope i won't go blind..hehe:P AND AND AND i bought the second book of Twilight, i am sooo happy!!! HEE:D

I would like to say:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JUAN!!!<3
&
HAPPY FIRST MONTH to her and Jianming as well.
Stay happy and beautiful always sister!! And hope you and jm will be happy together, stay sweet:D
And Jm dun bully her hor, although you are my fren but if u bully her or make her angry i will kill you!! haha...but i bet you won't :D Happy bbq-ing at Costa sands..haha:P Pack some back for me too..hee:)

Got the photos of the photoshoot. And i think its ok, but i still look funny..hahaha:P




HA


Ok Byeee

what we could have been, 8:21 PM.
Sunday, January 25, 2009

Reunion Dinner

Its Chinese New Year Eve today and its gonna be CNY tml, but the excitement is not there and i don't know why. Just finished my reunion dinner with my family and i am feeling so full now. My mum's cooking is always so yummy..hehe:D My neighbour is now at my house, and i heard from her that there is an solar eclipse tomorrow from about 4.30pm to 7 plus...hope i will be able to see it..hee:)

This years CNY will be boring, becos there will be lesser house to visit, and it will be done in a day or two, becos of some reasons:( After my grandparents passed away my CNY celebrations were less livelier, becos not the whole family will get together at my grandma's house anymore..sigh:(...and less angbaos..haha:P

Anyway i hope everyone will have a very HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! Receive lots of angbaos and win more money..hee:D

Just received my angbao from my brother in law..hehe:P:D

what we could have been, 7:10 PM.
Saturday, January 24, 2009

Songs of the Sea

Went to watch SOS yesterday with tofus. And the show was very nice, i love it!! :D And we enjoyed the day out:D Watched Hazlan performed too and we were waving to him, but he cnt see us..haha:P Gonna watch a second time if i have the chance again:)
I realise that i haven been to sentosa for a long time, i have never explored sentosa for a long time alreadi, many things have changed. Look so diff.

Ok, lets let the photos do the talking now..hee:P
Enjoy!! :D


Oscar fantasy...yumyum:P
Fireworks!!! :D

WOW!!





ENJOYING..hee:D
Byeee

what we could have been, 10:20 AM.
Friday, January 23, 2009

Francis bought yusheng for the class today...thank you..hee:P Did HSM presentation today and Ms Lim say its not bad. And i heaved a sigh of relieve man, cos i was the one who did the pp slides, if anything goes wrong( as you all noe my marketing sucks..hehe:P) i will be pulling the whole grp down. But luckily it went well, thanks to the website Reb gave me, it helped me alot:) And well done to tofus who did well at the presentation too..hee:D
Its gona be a gals day out today and i am going for SOS at sentosa later with tofus, can't wait!!! Hazlan will be performing also so we are there to support him too..hehe:D OK i have to prepare now...

Deep and Meaningless

I, I don't know why I miss you so much
Yeah I, I don't know why I still feel your touch
You, you left me feeling high and dry
With nothing, nothing but the question why
Yeah you, I guess you had another direction
And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection

If you call me todayI'll say that I'm fine
But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice
It's just a lieYou knew what you had
You still walked away leaving me in this mess
My love for you is deep and meaningless

You, you knew what you were doing to me
And I, I guess I was too blind to see
Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad
But I'd do it again to relive what we had
(Damn that's sad)

There are many things left to remind me
Of a love that I just can't leave behind me

Byeee

what we could have been, 3:08 PM.
Thursday, January 22, 2009

Almost getting there

Was supposed to be dismissed at 12 today becos Ms Saadiah was not in school and francis had something on, but the visitors spoiled everything, they came late and in the end we had to be dismissed late -__-"... So we just stayed in class after our lunch and did nothng till 2 plus...damn lame lor...haha:p After dismissal, jena, Ruby, me, Zaki, Ahmad, Qh, Sam and Taufiq went to vivo. Go there eat and lepak again...i think that will be our second home liao..hahaha:P Ruby, Jena and Ahmad went to work at 5, Sam also left, then David, Sihah and Nani came.

Lepak till 8.30 and we left. Have to finish up the pest analysis powerpoint, have to chiong sia. Tired..how to do, tml still got 2 presentation, i am so gonna die. Cnt sleep early today...sigh:(:(

My contacts are starting to give me problems, my eyes are so dry and uncomfortable now...thats the result of not changing my contacts for 3 months. I hope i won't go blind...hahaha:P I need to find someone to sponsor me contacts, unlimited supply...hee:P Anyone interested?:p

Happy 2nd Month to Vicky and Sara!!! :D

okok..have to chiong out my pp alreadi...

Byeee
i will find someone better and move on

what we could have been, 10:36 PM.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Long and tiring day

Had housekeeping theory test today, i just managed to read through all the chapters becos of the stupid migrain i had ystd but just force myself to read. And i am glad that i did, cos i can do the test today, so happy sia. Practised bed making today becos phase test will start next week, after CNY, scared sia, need to strip and make the bed, then have to clean guestroom somemore. Hope i can score well to make up for HSM.

Played truth and tears with tofus again, and again DEEP DEEP questions were asked...haha. And i didn't managed to answer one question..haha. How to choose...hahahaha:P(only tofus know)

Went JP after school with Jena, feel very tired but dun feel like going home so went there for a walk. Ahmad, Zaki, Qh, Mimi and Nani also went there, met them at mac and had dinner. No money liao lah!!:(:( Reached home at 9 plus and i am very tired now, spend the whole day outside...Keep thinking that tml is fri...i think i siao alreadi lah, my brain is not functioning well these few days..pardon me if i say the wrong things or if i forgot your name( i seriously did)..haha:P
Thinking about my new year clothes give me headache sia...dunnoe what to buy:(
I have a stupid ulcer at my throat, damn pain, cnt even eat properly..stupid sia:(:(

Ms Siew is asking class 5a1'07 to her house during CNY, dunnoe if i shld go...sian...

Byeee




what we could have been, 9:32 PM.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Leaving my mark behind

Elvin flared up again today..sigh.. But luckily the issue didn't get worse. Revised housekeeping with Deon, and the test is tml, but i haven studied yet. Oh my...y am i so lazy. Now want to study also cnt, having migrain again and i can't absorb anything into my brain..gonna take some panadol and see how, hope it goes away, it's pain:(:( If not need to chiong in the morning le.

Chinese New Year is coming soon, in less than a week...so fast. But i like...hehe:P Gonna shop for my new clothes this weekend, thats so last min:P

Jiayou for tomorrow's test everyone!!!:D

Byeee

what we could have been, 7:06 PM.
Monday, January 19, 2009

Photo taking

Had photo taking today. Had a class photo and a solo one. Was feeling funny when doing a solo one..haha Cos need to pose here pose there:P Hope it turns out nice cos it will be used for our resume:)

During the assembly, 3 of our seniors came back to talk to us about their attachment. Told us about their experience, like nasty guest and what they are doing in the hotel. I knew it won't be easy becos i had the experience working in a hotel, and it was hell and my sis and my brother-in-law is also working in a hotel so i know noe how the rules are like but at the same time the wanting to go to attachment got more. Becos i know that i will learn a lot and after the 6 months i will feel very accomplished. And the grooming standards are very high, and the grooming and attire of the 3 of them are very good and smart. In about 8 to 9 months time, it will be our turn. And i wonder which hotel will i work and will i be like the 3 of them...hee:)Francis say that our resume will be out in about march to may, its like in a few more months, damn fast sia. An d i dun even noe how to go about it..haha:P

May be having a Batam trip in feb or march and i hope everyone will be able to make it cos Francis say one dun go everyone won't go:( But i hope he will make an exception becos i noe a few will not go. Please lah...hehe:P Will be a busy month again.....
1) Projects
- Hospitality Sales and Marketing
- Life Skills
- Entrepreneurship
2) Fund Raising
3) Housekeeping Theory and Phase Test
And i think more things will be coming up...sigh:(

Have been saving this month, saved 50 plus le but have to return juan the money, so left with 0, have to sart all over again...sob sob:(:(:( I need money to buy my new year clothes, mummy...hee:P
Ok thats all i am hungry!!!!!!!!!!!

Byeee

what we could have been, 7:17 PM.
Sunday, January 18, 2009

GOGOGO

Went to Esplanade to do project. Rebecca cut her hair, and it is very cute. She look very different. Rebecca stop thinking that it is ugly and sun think of ways to get rid of it ok...it really look good on you:D In the evening, the wakanabes came and we finish off our project and went to the rooftop to lepak while waiting for Zaki, and Vicky went home first. After Zaki came we wemt for our dinner. And i ate agar agar for dinner, crazy right..haha:P After dinner, Sam and Nani left first and the rest of us went to lepak. And we left at 10..Home Sweet Home :D

Gambateh ok Tofus, dun be too stressed up by the projects:D

Going to my grandma hse later..hee:)

I want to bake cookies, when are u free Jena?

what we could have been, 9:08 AM.
Saturday, January 17, 2009

Tired and lazy

These few days i have been to lazy to update and i am really tired. Have been going out and reaching home late everyday. So i am very tired. Would feel sleepy everytime i sit in front of the com, and would be yawning away everywhere i go..haha:P School is pretty the same slack slack and slack..haha:P Couldn't rmb what happen the past few days and there is nth, so i will just blog abt what happened ystd.

After school went home, bathe and get changed and went to vivo to meet Ruby, Jena, Sihah, Qh, Ahmad, Nani, David, zaki, Samuel and Mimi. After that went to Starbucks and Ruby, Jena, Ahmad and Sihah left for work. Then Nani went for his soccer and Sam went off too. So me, Mimi, Zaki, David and Qh went to sky park, sit for 15 mins and i went off, cos meeting Chan and Juan. Bused to bb with david and i went to wm. Met up with chan and juan and we exchanged our presents...hehe Really loved my presents, got a laptop case(frm Juan) and a earring (frm chan). So happy..hee:D Then walked ard abit and i have to go, went back to vivo to meet the others again..Lepak there and left at 11 plus, took the last bus home. Slept in the bus and it made me sleepier...hahahaha:P Went to bed straight when i got home:p

Meeting tofus up to do project ltr...sigh. I am lazy and projects are once again piling up, tired man. But for the sake of my results i have to endure..hee:P Have to go through hard work to get good results:D
Ruby, dun be to stressed up alright. We will be right beside you supporting you all the way, lets do it tgt ok:D

Mummy's cooking my lunch now..hee:P so i won't go hungry ltr:D

Byeee

what we could have been, 11:28 AM.
Wednesday, January 14, 2009

A great job done

Today's service conference was very successful and HA did a very good job..Well Done Guys!! hee:D Three cheers for HA!! :D Bused to Dover ITE in the morning and reached at about 9, ate breakfast and then we went up to the auditorium. Samta was practising and they are seriously good..Rehearsed for 3 times and we went for our lunch. Then everyone changed into our uniform. All the girls put on make ups and he guys wore their ties properly..hehe:P Feels like we are wearing our uniform for the first time..haha And everyone looked very well groomed and smart:)
Everyone were very anxious while waiting for the service conference to start. And then it was our turn, and it was the best, even without the mic in front, we were very loud. I am glad we did it and i am sure we did our class proud. Mr Francis say we will be performing at during the seniors graduation also..happy sia..hehe:P
Went to MSQ then to Esplanade to lepak after that. Then Ahmad, Zaki, Mimi and Taufiq joined us after that. Lepak till 8.45 then off we go, bused to bb interchange with David then took 173 home. A very tiring day today :( I am yawning away now..haha:P I need a good nights sleep:) Good night everyone:D

Byeee
Looking at the path we walked through brought back everything...

what we could have been, 10:39 PM.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Monday

Went to Dover for another dry run, met up with Tofus, Qh and David, supposed to reach there at 9 but arrived late, because of the stupid bus. But luckily haven start, still can eat breakfast at the cafe..hehe:P Rehearsed a few times and we were will be performing the opening..sad sia:( And we will not be singing If we hold on together anymore because the committee say too long liao. Practised so long le then now say dun wan, sad leh:(:(:(
But Ruby will be singing a duet with Ahmad on I'm Yours, happy sia..hee:P After that the class had lunch in the canteen and we all went back to school..so sian..haha:P

Tuesday, the 13th

Everyday is almost the same, a boring and long day. Esp Elvin's class..hehe:P There was no SnW today and i brought my shoes and tee shirt, so mafan, nobody tell me no SnW:(:( After school went to vivo with a bunch of HA-rians, lepak there again...hehe:P Left at 6 plus and me and Ayu bused home.
Tml will be the Service Conference le, HA jiayou, let's do our best and let everyone be proud of HA and HPO of Clementi ITE :D
Till now holding back is all i can do.

what we could have been, 7:50 PM.
Sunday, January 11, 2009

Playing?

Went to vivo ystd evening, wanted to watch a movie but there were too many ppl. Met up with Sam and Qh first, then went to find Zaki at Starbucks and he was so good to treat us to some drinks. Then Ruby came to meet us after work and went mac to have dinner. After that me and ruby went into sentosa to wait for Jena and Ahmad, then we went back to vivo and meet up with the others. Ayu and Nani were also waiting for us there alreadi, so we lepak there again. Left at about 10 and bused home.

Know what, i saw Agus there, i miss him so much that i hugged him when i saw him..haha:) This guy ar come back so long le still never call me:( , but nvm, gonna meet him at IMM soon, i am sooooo happy!! Hope can meet up with the other CC people too. Saw Lien a few days back too and she look okay, after her accident i am so worried about her, i am glad shes ok now :) And I miss everyone of them..I can't wait!! :D

what we could have been, 4:33 PM.
Saturday, January 10, 2009

Hope

School start at 11 ystd but still woke up early to collect my pay at woodlands. Then mrted back to clementi and met up with the others and went to school together. Everyone in our class wore our class tee and it was easily to spot our classmates...hee:) Had a 2 hour HSM class and i failed my hsm test...sigh..expected but i am still disappointed:(:( So i have to study harder.

After that the whole class went to Dover for our audition, and the whole class took 963 there. We even sang I'm Yours and If we hold on together while walking out of the school. So funny but nice and very united. Everyone was looking at us too...haha:P When we reached we kept practising and practising. And the commitee saw our performance and said it was not bad but still have to have some changes. Ended at about 5 plus 6 then some of us went to vivo to lepak. Stayed there till 10 then went home.
AND i saw him when we are crossing the road outside the school, i think i appeared too excited but i am soo happy!!! hee:P
At least i have something now to divert my attention.

Byeee

I hate my family sometimes...i really hate this.
I really feel like crying whenever i see them like this

what we could have been, 11:30 AM.
Thursday, January 08, 2009

If we hold on together

School was okay but i didn't get to see him:( hehe:P
Practised our singing again and we did alot better, better co ordination too, so happy..hee:) Class will be starting at 11 tml, but i still have to wake up early, because me, ayu and vicky have to travel all the way to Woodlands Link to take our pay then travel back to school, sigh so far sia:(:( After class we have to go to Dover ITE for the dry run, and it will end quite late. Gonna be a long and busy day tml. But i am still looking forward to it..hee:D

Took 963 home just now, and surprisingly the bus was not full. Saw a very crude man, keep scolding cb on the phone, every sentence he say oso will scold that word...so noisy...tsk tsk

Ok Ok gonna have my dinner now, i am so hungry..hee:P

Byeee

what we could have been, 7:07 PM.
Wednesday, January 07, 2009

Happy?

School was quite ok today. Wanted to keep myself awake during HSM lesson but i can't, and the stupid air con is damn cold, i was shivering through out, increase the temp also no use.
And and and i was so happy during lunch break..hahaha...I can't stop thinking ok, too bad its just a little while only:(:( hee:P Can the orientation extend? the longer the better..hehe:P

Francis talked to us about our attachment and our resumes, its very fast, in about 10 months time we will be having aour attachment...happy and sad at the same time:):(

To someone,
I am sorry for not keepng my promise, and sorry for disappointing you. I know its for my own good and i know its bad for me. I have alreadi quitted.

Byeee

what we could have been, 7:30 PM.
Tuesday, January 06, 2009

Fun and Laughter

Today's the second day of school and i am very happy to be able to see my classmates again. A new school, new friends and a whole new enviroment for the new students. Seeing them reminds me my first few days at school..haha.

Had fun today with the class, we practised I'm Yours and if We Hold On Together and showed it to Ms Tan i think..hehe:p Was excited and i am very happy because we sang as a class and to me we did really very well and i really looked forward to the service conference next wednesday, about a week more to go. Jiayou HA, we can do it!! :D Will be having a dry run on friday and mon at Dover ITE (HQ), so no class..yipee!! Hope some of the guys will be able to make it.

Played and laughed alot today too all becos of that Daryl, he is damn funny ok. Continue to sing ok..hehe:p And stop sataying me, and if u say Tofus again, i am gonna call everyone to satay u..hahahaha:P

Francis also talked to us about the Batam trip and i am so excited, because we can have fun together again, i can't wait man, and i hope everyone will be able to make it :)
A good news, Ruby was selected to be the MC of the graduating ceremony for our seniors..hehe:P Happy ar:P Dun scared Ruby, you can, but dun get carried away when u see him ok..hehehehehe:p Jiayous!! :D

When can i get my class tee? :(

Yeah, just finished watching Forensic Files II, very nice show, love it..hee:D And And And a HAPPY ENDING!!! :D:D:D:D

Byeee
I tried but i am really tired i can't carry on anymore. And problems at home are really causing me to have a headache, what can i do, i need some breathing space. Just bring me away




what we could have been, 7:32 PM.
Sunday, January 04, 2009

Back to school

Schools gonna start tomorrow, holidays are ending. But its a good holiday, chiong-ing work, spending money, have fun with my friends and the HA-rians. And i want more. Hope the next holiday will also be the same, filled with fun and laughter. And hope things will be better and i will too. After the chalet i just can't wait to see my lovely classmates again..hee:D But classes are gonna start and i have to study again. Just endure, soon it will be over..hehe:P

Hope i am able to wake up on time tml..hehe:P

Byeee
i miss you

what we could have been, 7:34 PM.
Friday, January 02, 2009

Can I ?

Went for a haircut today, tried a new style and i am quite satisfied. Just have to get use to it..hehe:P Saved alot cos it onli cost $10 and i dun have to straighten...lucky..hee:D
Last min decided to go far east plaza. Went with Rebecca, Sihah and Jena. Shop around and i bought a dress, quite ex but i really love it..hee:P So when school reopens i have to start saving all over again, have to starve again..haha:P kidding.

Holidays are coming to an end, and i dun even realise its friday today..haha. I abit gong :p ok hope i dun have to spend my last holiday's weekend at home..hee:P

Byeee
I don't know how to...

what we could have been, 11:14 PM.
Thursday, January 01, 2009

A New Year

Happy New Year To Everyone!!!!
Say goodbye to 2008 and welcome 2009 :D

This is my first post this year, its already a new year today, but i dun feel anything. Missed the celebrations and the beautiful fireworks yesterday, sigh...wasted becos the fireworks are really beautiful.
4 more days before school reopens, i miss the class... Hope everything goes well this year for everyone:D
To you, stay happy and healthy like always. Take care, ily

Byeee

what we could have been, 1:59 PM.

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