Monday, November 03, 2008
Will things be different?
School today is fucking boring...and i keep sleeping cos i am damn tired. And i dunnoe wat got over me when i was in the LT just now. I really want to have a puff, but i know Tofus will not let me do that, i know it is bad for me but something is just stuck inside, i feel so uncomfortable and i need to let it out. I promise i will not be addicted to it one, i will only have it if i need. Cos i am not a person who likes to smoke, so i will curb myself one. When Daryl offered me one at the bus stop i really wan to just take it have a puff, but Tofus is there and he is oso there, i nearly couldn't control myself. Rebecca i know that if u see this u will definitely scold me one and u will say its not worth to harm myself becos of him, but i hope u will understand. Everything inside my mind now is all him and i duunoe y these few days i have been thinking of the things we did together, i want to get it out but it just naturally come...
I was wondering, will everything be different if we were never together, i think it will and everything will be better, so much better than now. I screwed things up and all our lives will be different from now on...Sorry that things have to be this way, I am just so stupid...
Byeee
I hate myself and the life i am leading now
School today is fucking boring...and i keep sleeping cos i am damn tired. And i dunnoe wat got over me when i was in the LT just now. I really want to have a puff, but i know Tofus will not let me do that, i know it is bad for me but something is just stuck inside, i feel so uncomfortable and i need to let it out. I promise i will not be addicted to it one, i will only have it if i need. Cos i am not a person who likes to smoke, so i will curb myself one. When Daryl offered me one at the bus stop i really wan to just take it have a puff, but Tofus is there and he is oso there, i nearly couldn't control myself. Rebecca i know that if u see this u will definitely scold me one and u will say its not worth to harm myself becos of him, but i hope u will understand. Everything inside my mind now is all him and i duunoe y these few days i have been thinking of the things we did together, i want to get it out but it just naturally come...
I was wondering, will everything be different if we were never together, i think it will and everything will be better, so much better than now. I screwed things up and all our lives will be different from now on...Sorry that things have to be this way, I am just so stupid...
Byeee
I hate myself and the life i am leading now
what we could have been, 7:55 PM.
